Still lost...

Somehow I can't feel but a little sad. I doubt my attempts to contract my penpal would yield any results. I mean, it's been so long already... maybe he doesn't wanna keep in contact with me, or has some other personal reasons. Or he's already married and it would weird for him to write to me. Or maybe he'd think that I have some ulterior motive for writing to him, I dunno....

I just have this sinking feeling in my heart. I mean, I don't know for sure but I have no confidence in this. Crap, I don't even know whether I got the right person! Maybe I should write to every person with the same name on this island. Maybe I should stop fretting over this. Maybe I shouldn't have been such an idiot in the beginning. Sigh.

I know it's quite fruitless to worry over this, but I'm a little anxious and really wanna find him. Why? To know him better. It ended abruptly before we could really get to know one another and I am just curious to know this person better.

Sorry to bother you with all this rambling and whining.... I think I'm obsessing. ARGH!
Maybe one day, he would do a google and read all I've written. Maybe.....
Maybe I'd be gone the next day and at least, I have said all that I needed to say here.

Oh well.

Blame the dumb 14 year old me.

The case of the missing penpal

I think I may have found my penpal. Not too sure yet.. but he might have relocated (and that's why my letter most probably would reach him)... Found someone by that name who lives near the previous address...

I'm dying to see whether it's the correct person. Whether I've found him or not. But then, I figured.. I've already waited more than a decade for this. What's another few days or weeks? The thought of it is unbearable.... why didn't I do it sooner? I don't know... hesitating... unsure whether I should do it or not.... it feels right this time to write back and perhaps, find some closure to this.

Is he happy now? Married? With kids?
Doing well? Healthy?
What's his job? Future aspiration?

We've got a decade worth of catching up to do. Maybe it's too late already. I hope he hasn't passed away or something.. that wld be terrible. People change all the time and he has probably changed as well... I doubt he'll be the same person but the character traits would be there.

It's a pity I didn't get to really know him at that time... that's what I want to try to do this round... IF i can find him and IF he is willing.

Lost in Singapore

How, oh! how do you find someone in Singapore?

It's driving me crazy trying to find someone here. Given Singapore's population, how hard can it be to locate someone? Apparently, it's very difficult.

I've tried the yellowpages, friendster, google... to no vain!! Sigh. Maybe we're not destined to meet. Like he said before, "So close yet so far." It's very frustrating... I do have one sure way to find him, but I would leave that as the last resort.

Maybe some people don't want to be found. That's a possibility.

Maybe he'll turn out to be someone I don't wanna know. That's possible as well.

Well, since I've already started this journey, I might as well try my best.

Will you... be my valentine?

Well, I've finally done it. I've posted a letter to my long lost penpal's old mailing address, hoping that he would somehow or rather still be residing there.

This is like a story out of a book. I don't know why.. things with me can be rather surreal sometimes. I'm searching for a person..... don't know where he is, or even whether he's still alive. I'm gonna wait for the mail anxiously for the next few days.... I mean, it's really weird for someone to reply after a decade has gone past, but I hope it's not too late. The letters are one of my most treasured items... every single one is being read and reread... I consider myself lucky to have kept these in tip-top condition over the past few years. Some of the little gifts he gave me are still there too. Things of the past... like, giving a MRT card as gift, or just a simple bookmark or sticker. Nothing fantastic in terms of monetary value, but they're all priceless to me.

Hope I'll be able to find him eventually....

A Long, Long Time Ago...

I've been doing some spring cleaning these past two weeks and stumbled onto some letters from old penpals.

There's this particular pen-pal who I miss dearly. We only knew each other for less than 3 months, yet, it seemed as though we've known each other for ages. I'm going to attempt to trace him after all these years... perhaps he's still around? I was 14 when we started writing to each other, and I guess, handled certain things rather poorly.

In one of his letters, he gave his analysis of my character:

"I was right in my intuition... you are indeed sweet, nice, and caring. Besides that, you are frank, out-spoken, and seem a bit stubborn and pessimistic. =) You do treasure friendship and earning your friendship is not easy. You don't trust people easily and don't accept changes fast. You don't like Chinese stuff (except food!), don't like fish unless you are sure it is bone-free; crabs as well unless it is shell-free; loves Eng comics and Chinese ones not so much cos of the language, enjoy pen-paling, out-door activities and flowers."

I think this guy knew me better than my other friends who had known me for years. It's such a pity we lost touch. I'm just amazed that we had such a strong bond that even today, I still feel guilty for how we lost touch. I sincerely do wish he's happy and doing well now.... it's a pity how friendships can die off sometimes. This guy was really special to me... think I shall write to his mailing address and see whether he's still living there. Would be great if we could give this a second chance.. even though it's more than a decade late. Whatever the case is, he's special to me... and I was, to him then too.

Such is the cruelty of ignorance and fate.

I really really want my penpal back. We used to write mega letters to each other... every free time I had, be it recess or even during a car ride, I would take the opportunity to jot down a few lines. It became a weekly ritual to receive each other's letters.... not doing so would, in his words, be "unbearable."

Anyway, this is like some melodramatic TV serial... I hope we would have the chance to cross paths again in future. If not, I wish him happiness wherever he is... and thanks for all the beautiful memories. (smiles)

Renault Megane Coupe-Cabriolet

My 2nd time driving a convertible!! Here, for a test drive. Sweet!

For specs, click here.

Saab Aero X

Got the chance to see this baby when it was here in Singapore:

For specs, click here.

Happy Birthday To Me!

Gloomy thursday

OH YAY!! My gf and I are thinking of a weekend R&R trip to Bintan real soon! hehehe.. wanted to go there for ages already. So fun! It would be a good opportunity to catch up with her.. haven't seen her for nearly a year already. I've never really explored Bintan city centre even though I've been there twice already. On both accounts, it was for golf. This should be an interesting experience.

Sigh.. I've got all kinds of ideas for a fabulous celebration but nobody is keen. sobs... and they think my ideas are weird! hahaha...I shall not go into the details lest you start thinking that I'm weird too, but honestly, I thought they were brilliant ideas. My friends are soooo unsporting.

Anyway, boxing today wasn't so good. Maybe cos I was feeling a little tired or not in the mood (I was hyper during the day though), my moves lacked power and energy. I was kinda disappointed by my own performance at the end of the day. I shall aim to do better the next time round... maybe need to perk it up with a bit of cardio exercise or aerobics so that my stamina and agility can increase. oh well.... I like living a healthy lifestyle. Somehow or rather, you feel better, and your body feels more toned and less fatique. Whole lot of bull? I don't think so. lol

Later, folks....

Bored? Spam each other at work!

We have resorted to spamming each other at work/home these days. Planning has never been easy, so when the chance came to organize an event, email seems the most convenient way to go. Kinda amusing at times.

How we spam:
(Trying to decide which restaurant to go)

Part I
L: Which restaurant? DR or B?
J: I want big portions!
T: Anyway, I guess I got no opinion..seems like only Jiayi has an opinion..hmm..not surprised..ha ha!! U girls decide lah..I anything also can..
J: What the hell! hehe..... Of cos, I always got an opinion. haha
L: Wassup with big portions anyway?
T: Yup..and I agree that Jiayi's opinions are STRONG..but I must also add that she likes to give them even when no one wants to hear them..ha ha ha!!
L: Agree.. Jiayi always got opinion one.. and strong one somemore. Opps :X If the rest have no objections (PLEASE REPLY IF YOU DO).. we'll stick to Jia's preference


Part II


T:Eh..I know what I want liao..I want diamond ear rings..
J: HUH? diamond earrings, solitaire and big? hm. Crystal can? If not, I don't thk very feasible. think of something else.
T: U mean can reject requests one? *I'm giving u a xia lan look now*..
J: Haha.. of cos can lah. LOL.


Quite funny, I thought. hehehe....I love my bunch of friends!

Dying Aspirations.....

Went to watch "Wild Hogs" today. Ok only movie. I expected it to be hilarious (since B said it's damn funny) but no lor, it was more of a mid-life crisis kinda movie. Finally went to Yong He Dou Jian at Geylang with a couple of friends. I've been craving for you tiao and dou jiang for ages! hehe...

One piece of good news this week is that Simon might be able to get a sponsored trip for both of us to R&R in Australia! Yay! I'm sooo looking forward for a sun-soaked vacation next to the beach. Might wanna try scuba-diving this time or maybe even fishing! That would be cool... Simon's da man! hehe...

Was just talking to a friend..... she's in her mid-thirties now and she was sharing with me some of her dreams that vaporised into thin air as she grew older. One main reason is cos she has to take care of her parents as the sole bread-winner... with that includes sacrifices like no dream sports car, going overseas, migrating and etc God... I'd better make full use of my life before I hit that patch. F... that's it man, I'm sooo gonna have fun this weekend! We're planning the birthday celebrations this weekend, so it will be a good opportunity to let loose and party!!! hehe.. right, fellas? *wink*