I've been doing some spring cleaning these past two weeks and stumbled onto some letters from old penpals.
There's this particular pen-pal who I miss dearly. We only knew each other for less than 3 months, yet, it seemed as though we've known each other for ages. I'm going to attempt to trace him after all these years... perhaps he's still around? I was 14 when we started writing to each other, and I guess, handled certain things rather poorly.
In one of his letters, he gave his analysis of my character:
"I was right in my intuition... you are indeed sweet, nice, and caring. Besides that, you are frank, out-spoken, and seem a bit stubborn and pessimistic. =) You do treasure friendship and earning your friendship is not easy. You don't trust people easily and don't accept changes fast. You don't like Chinese stuff (except food!), don't like fish unless you are sure it is bone-free; crabs as well unless it is shell-free; loves Eng comics and Chinese ones not so much cos of the language, enjoy pen-paling, out-door activities and flowers."
I think this guy knew me better than my other friends who had known me for years. It's such a pity we lost touch. I'm just amazed that we had such a strong bond that even today, I still feel guilty for how we lost touch. I sincerely do wish he's happy and doing well now.... it's a pity how friendships can die off sometimes. This guy was really special to me... think I shall write to his mailing address and see whether he's still living there. Would be great if we could give this a second chance.. even though it's more than a decade late. Whatever the case is, he's special to me... and I was, to him then too.
Such is the cruelty of ignorance and fate.
I really really want my penpal back. We used to write mega letters to each other... every free time I had, be it recess or even during a car ride, I would take the opportunity to jot down a few lines. It became a weekly ritual to receive each other's letters.... not doing so would, in his words, be "unbearable."
Anyway, this is like some melodramatic TV serial... I hope we would have the chance to cross paths again in future. If not, I wish him happiness wherever he is... and thanks for all the beautiful memories. (smiles)
Sunday, May 20, 2007
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Wow Jia! This person is really a penpal worth keeping and contacting! Based on the words describing you in one of his letters to you.. I felt not only closeness, understanding and warmth..but then its a little scary (not sure of what word to use to describe) too..hmm..like he knows you a lot within a very short time..but its truly comforting at times, knowing that there is someone out there who actually understands your feelings and character (which i think its very important in a true friendship relationship).
But i do truly hope that you would finally find your pen pal back again..=)Having someone who really understands you deep down is not only a very fortunate gift, but a very rare one too...
As I've always said, true understanding and patience are quite the most important ingredients in maintaining a true friendship. Pple who are dear to you are always the pple you trust the most and can rely on..=)
love lots,
your brussel sprouts!
Dear Brussel Sprouts,
Yah, I know what you mean. I feel the same way too, finding someone who understands me so well. That's why I wanna try to find that person again and see whether we can "re-connect".. because these people are one-in-a-million and precious to me.
You're right.. it can be a little scary.. but my most worrying thing is to be able to find him. If not, I guess maybe in the next life-time then. =)
Thanks for writing!
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